Joseph Campbell
Today I listed my wedding band for sale to help pay for the divorce. That seems really big and really final. I don't really know how I should feel about it. I guess I'm feeling emotionally detached. I'm really ready for this marriage to be over. It's really sad to have to say that, but I'm just done. I have been blessed with clarity and discernment. Especially when I speak to Mr. M, I can just see so clearly how he is trying to manipulate me and control me. No more. I'm finished.
I feel like he isn't taking this seriously. I wonder if it will all become real to him when he's being served with divorce papers or when it's declared final. I wish he would wake up. I definitely feel like he doesn't believe that I'm going through with this.
There have been moments, like when my mom and I were dancing with the boys during the end credits of "Frozen" or when my brother had Charlie up on his shoulders at the airport picking up Chad, that I know Mr. M has no idea what he's missing out on. It makes me so sad for the moment that he does finally understand. My boys are the greatest joy I have ever experienced.
Someday, they will have a stepfather that will love them as his own. He will love them, guide them, teach them, and be a good example of what a man should be. He will be respectful of women and children. He will be kind. He will be emotionally engaged.
I've come to realize that my life is still rich and full of joy. Nothing that Mr. M does can rob me of that. I still have a bright, shining future without him. I will lose no blessings and no positive experiences because of him. That is what God promises me as I continue to obey him.
Final Thought
"Ordinary people who faithfully, diligently, and consistently do simple things that are right before God will bring forth extraordinary results."
David A. Bednar
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